xlxnoirxlx's Xanga

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Thu, 12 May 2005 22:15:29 GMT

well good. and bad. ....well both good. actually mediocre i guss.....w/e

ok i made a new xanga. tis a lil sloppy but hoo kares. anywayz its "a____tragic_xx_lullaby" quotes not included! i figured out how to get into look and feel tho. but i still juss wanted a new one. i'll prob be makin new ones a lot lolz okie uhm yah okie all bye bye

.((shani)).

Thursday, May 12, 2005

Thu, 12 May 2005 12:30:20 GMT

SHUTTING this site DOWN.

hey. my thingy is all fucked up so. im gonna shut this site down. fer sum reason it got all messed up wen i was changin it up. so i cant get into my look and feel. ok then bye bye all.i'll like POST AGAIN WITH THE NAME TO MY NEW SITE. IF I MAKE A NEW ONE.YEAH I PROB WILL. OKIE DOKES LATERZ

.((SHANI)).

Friday, May 06, 2005

Fri, 06 May 2005 12:41:52 GMT

hey all. uhm kim left this mornin. T.T . and all there is left is another 13 months till she comes bak. *unenthusiastically yayz*. so yah long wait. anywayz i uhm have decided to die my hair. i kno i sed i was gonna last time but. i dont thinkmum wuld love the green. so i instead am deciding to go skunk. it'll look sweet. and im gettin an industrial and second holes. i may have already sed that. but. oh well. anywayz me and sum frendz were talkin bout it in math and science. and decided and industrial must hert like kell. but i am hoping it doesnt. either way tis werth the pain cuz they are so damned sweet-looking. lol. uhm yah got into most serious tiff with the twin and now. well now. to eachother we dopnt even exist unless. unless we are baad-mouthing eachother. but. tis cool with me. jus 3 more years and im outta here. ok. this is getting long. and. boring. so buh bye all.

oh p.s- srry ALAN fer that uber retarded call and what not. promise never to do it again.

.((shani)).

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Tue, 03 May 2005 14:44:16 GMT

x marx tha truth____________________________

(x) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
(x) madeout with a member of the same sex
(x) had a boyfriend/girlfriend
( ) crashed a friend's car
(x) made out in a car
( ) stolen a car
(x) been in love
(x) been dumped
(x) shoplifted
(x) been fired
(x) been in a fist fight
(x) snuck out of my parent's house
(x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
(x) been arrested
(x) made out with a stranger
(x) gone on a blind date (long storii. turn out-regretted)
(x) gone out with someone 5+ years older
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
(x) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
(x) been on a plane
( ) never been out of home state
( ) thrown up in a bar
(x) purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) eaten Sushi
(x) been snowboarding
(x) been moshing at a concert
( ) been in an abusive relationship.
(x) taken painkillers
(x) love someone or miss someone right now
(x) laid on your back and watched clouds go by
(x) made a snow angel
(x) had a tea party
(x) flown a kite
(x) built a sand castle
(x) gone puddle jumping
(x) played dress up
(x) jumped into a pile of leaves
(x) gone sledding
(x) cheated while playing a game
(x) been lonely
(x) fallen asleep at work/school
( ) used a fake id (didnt need it...i guss im that convincing. hehe)
(x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(x) touched a snake
(x) slept beneath the stars
(x) been tickled
(x) been robbed.
(x) been misunderstood
(x) petted a reindeer/goat.
(x) won a contest
(x) run a red light
(x ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident.
( ) had braces (wanted em' tho)
(x) felt like an outcast
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
(x) danced in the moonlight
(x) hated the way you look
(x) witnessed a crime
(x) (jokingly)pole danced.
(x) questioned your heart
(x) been obsessed with post-it notes
(x) squished barefoot through the mud
(x) been lost (all the time)
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(x) swam in the ocean
(x) felt like dying
(x) cried yourself to sleep
(x) played cops and robbers
(x) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(x) sung karaoke.
(x) paid for a meal with only coins
(x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(x) made prank phone calls
(x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(x) danced in the rain
(x) written a letter to Santa Claus
(x) been kissed under a mistletoe
(x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
(x) blown bubbles
(x) made a bonfire on the beach
(x) crashed a party
(x) gone rollerskating
( ) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey.
( ) played flashlight tag
(x) worn pearls
(x) jumped off a bridge
(x) screamed penis in class
(x) ate dog/cat food
(x) told a complete stranger you loved them
(x) kissed a mirror
(x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( ) had a dream that you married someone
(x) glued your hand to something.
( ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole.
(x) kissed a fish
(x) worn the opposite sexes clothes
(x) been a cheerleader
(x) sat on a roof top
(x) played kick-the-can
(x) screamed at the top of your lungs
(x) done a one-handed cartwheel
(x) talked on the phone for more than 3 hours
(x) stayed up all night
(x) didn't take a shower for a week (hehe. 5 days)
(x) picked and ate an apple right off the tree (crab apples. wasnt yummy)
(x) climbed a tree
(x) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone
(x) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
( ) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(x) gone streaking
(x)pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(x) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
(x) been easily amused
(x) caught a fish
( ) made porn
(x) caught a butterfly
(x) laughed so hard you cried
(x) cried so hard you laughed
(x) mooned/flashed someone
(x) had someone moon/flash you
(x) cheated on a test
(x) had a Britney Spears CD
(x) forgotten someone's name
(x) slept naked
(x) French braided someone's hair
(x) gone skinny dipping.
(x) been threatened to be kicked out of your house
(x) been kicked out your house
(x) cried because of a song
( ) realized how lucky you are
( ) gone swing-dancing
(x) said yes before you knew what the favor was
(x) done an "attitude walk" in a public place

hehe. isnt that thingy grand. lol i stole it frum sumone on featured lol. oh well. i liek it. anywayz uhm yah lol. that was fun. brought back mad memzzz. kk buhbye all.

...((shani))...

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 21:25:31 GMT

hummdingerr..

.changed my site. just a lil bit. and today i am doing a very hard spanish project. die spanish III! die!...blegh it sux..anywayz i saw sum rad sites today..xanga is like my mistress..lol...anyway..i was a lil depressed today..i think my frend is mad at me which really REALLY sux. and i feel really bad. and they got off..and then i got off...and now im here..and i think i better go prepare my "visual aid" fer my espanola report. ok bye bye dearies

...[shani]...

xxx[edit]xxx:

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

..i love u napolean

Tuesday, April 26, 2005

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 13:05:07 GMT

[[[edit]]]==>6 hours later

ewww!!!!!! i jus looked at how long this is and came to the conclusion that..its pretty long..uhm what was it i wanted to say..oh yah! i was listenin to queen in the car with my mum "bohemian rhapsody" *i cant spell** and i think that song is really sweet...like icing on ur cake sweet..u kno?..ionno i liek them alot uhm hoo else kiks ass...OH! DAVID BOWIE KIKZ ARSE!! thas hoo rawx and i think vanilla ice shuld be punched in the head fer what he did...then impaled...yeah lolz...uhm....im at my mumz college and the people here are freaky...this gurl across frum me is complaining about her frend deleted all her comments on myspace...^_^; ...thas ..special..and she wont SHUT THE FUK UP!!!!! GOD...I JUST WANT TO REACH ACROSS THE TABLE ANDSMASH HER COVER UP SMOTHERED FACE INTO HER COMPUTER MONITOR...THEN SEE WHAT SHES COMPLAINING ABOUT...ugh anywayz yeah im in a bit of a pissy mood..yeah lolz..and people sign onto freeakin aim already im bored!!!!...ok im gonna go collect more info fer my term paper on mcr ..tre koolyness.....oye vay!..i juss wrote a nother shit load of type fer u'z ta read along with the entry i put in before which is below this...and prob way more important so read that one instead..wait u just read this one...ugh ok nvm do what u please im gonna go now lolz bye bye

...[shani!]...

okay..havent posted in like 3 er 4 days...but thas cuz not much has happened and im goin into one of my moods again **hating life and everyone and anything in my life** it sux...but heres the sum of it... **might get long-not sure** uhm ok over the weekend i wasd sposed to go see kung fu hustle..but since im in the new town and its 30 mins away frum most of my frends i wuld have to get sumone to ride me there and back...which is not fair cuz only my mum sis and her bf kno how to get there and bak ...and they are arseheads!...so i didnt go.. i havent even been online in the longest and i only get to surf and update xanga wen at skool and not doin my werk **which i shuld be doin now** it sux...uhm what else ive been doing the whole scraping thing but still not drawing blood..cuz i duno im really stupid and i need serious help..thAT reminds me.. i havent seen that lady uhm MELINDA in the past 2 er 3 weeks... maybe all that stupid jabbering and uh huh she does really was helping cuz i feel like shit and i havent been seeing her...which is stupiud cuz i hate her **srry MELINDA my darling but u are an old fart and i do in fact hate ur stinking molding guts** so i dunno....oh my mum has threatened to hospitalize me.. why? i have no idea..i was just having a bad day **this happened a few days precedent**and i was crying a lot and i kinda screamed at her and told her i had no frendz that i really liked ...and then she got all mutherly and cried and sed what was rong? and wanted to kno a whole bunch of shit and she was all tuchy and huggy...then i was liek all weird then she started crying again and since i really hate to see my mum cry i reached over to rub her back and nearly caused a car crash **mind u this all happened while pummeling thrue traffic on the highway** and she screamed..more liek yelped "dont touch me!!!" i was in total shock..i kno it sounds asinine to say but im used to pushin her away and gettin cudly wen i want to and her bein nmore than happy to oblige...but now im bein shot down by my own mum...it was sad and scary..i wanted to cry..but i held it in went home and **attempted** to unleash the pain upon myself...maybe i am just craving attention and love and what not...deep down..but its not what i feel i want wen it happens..i dunno it sux...lets seeonto last night i cried..i dunno y but the sky was so clear at night and a deep shade of blue black and the moon...the moon was full and screaming fer attention i looked at it and saw all the gray spots and the brightness was so defined that it made those crystal like shines off of it and i had to sorta squint....and it just was so pretty it made me cry...**i sound so cheesy-but its the truth** and it made me want to be an astranaut and go to the moon and live there and be all non-gravity like...it was weird i wanted to live there and be alone and never come backto this sucky reality that is my life...it was sad and pretty and nice at the same time..i also read a full book yesterday 290= pages and small print...not so bad im becoming a faster reader and it was good and it made me want to be in a book...and they mentioned my fave book of all time the perks of being a wallflower..it was grand and it was sad too....uhm yeah so i realized last night that i love someone..someone hoo i probably shuldnt and prob doesnt love me oin the same way bak..but sure enuff loves me..least seyz they do...anywayz the bell just rang and mr.peterson will be all goofy if im late so i gtg ...<3 u all...bye bye ...p.s-i get to see kim really really soon!!!

...~^*shani!

Friday, April 22, 2005

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 19:33:04 GMT

raggghh!

i cant stop screaming. and im not sure y or what kind of screams they are. all i kno is wen i htink about a certain sumone i scream. i dont hate him tho so i dont kno y...lolz naywyaz i been listenin to gwen stefani today lozl. she is so freakin beautiful. and she has money so she can dress however she wants and what not and always look good. shes pretty much perfect. as well as naima frum this seasons antm shes hot. and i'll say it cuz its tru. uhm anywyaz im at the old house still gettin old crap and garbage up. Oh!! yesterday i got hats. thewy are really very nifty. there is one thas a lil ugly but hoo kares. uhm one is a straw hat and two are pimp hats and the 4th is a military syle hat. yep yep but we gotta clean and disinfect and all that goodness before they go on our heads. yah lolz. i went to the beach too. since i live less than a block frum it now. its really beaUtiful i found lots ok kooly rocks to. yeah i kno ur thinkin what a loser she collects rocks and shells frum the beach. but oh well i like em and thas all that matters. uhm yeah im really bored. dont kno wat to do. errrrruhhmmm ok im gonna go now bye bye all.

...~^*shani!

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 18:41:11 GMT

::bleh::

time for a change...lets see didnt go to skool today slept...then came on and had to babysit bratt little bro...i really love the new attic room...kims comin in sum time cant wait...uhh i wanna put new music on too...gorillaz layout theme gettin old...

::questioN fruM mE::

................if a vegitarian eats chicken flavored ramen...are they breakin the ruleZ??????~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~????

...~^*shani!

::xxxx::

ugh...im wekrin on the page this I am doin...is juss not as easy cuz im tired and i have other things on my mind ... so it looks like shyt now but it will get better...ok bye now

...~^*shani!

::xxxx::

my site is icky!! .. i want it to be sniceness. but im glad u all think its rad c[= hehe. ok bye bye

...~^*shani!

Monday, April 18, 2005

Mon, 18 Apr 2005 12:31:58 GMT

**tear::tear** ... i am loved ... isnt that grand? ... okaaaaaayyyy lolz anywayz uhmn yah im livin in tha nerw house now.. its so fukin scary .. im scared of my room and the basement ... ive been sleeping in the dining room on an aero ... lolz yah .. uhm KIM!! i miss u too!! i have so much to tell u as well its crazy! can't wait ta see ya!! u better call me on ur way frum the airport if im somehow not there!! ... lolz yah miss ya mucho and can't wait ta see ya!! ...p.s- i'll give u ur christmas prez's >_< i kept fergetting to send em out!! >_< ... ...ok lolz uhmn not much to say now.. uhh srry ALAN fer leavin that really stupid message! u must delete it! i sound uber crazy lolz... guss i juss wanted ta talk to ya fer sum odd reason ...lolz ok bye bye all!

~additionaL P.S- KIM!! lolz i'll give u my phone number as soon as i find out what it is too lolz... blah blah blah ... ok lolz byerz again

...~^*shani!

Friday, April 15, 2005

Fri, 15 Apr 2005 03:37:33 GMT

humm. well today was rather successful. i finally got to see my room. the day before i move in. but let me say this. it was so worth it! the room is so sweet and the window opens like a door and it slides up as well. it has a little crawl space in the corner where i can put stuff if i want er i can go in it if i'd like. lolz. idunno its really cool. the best room in the house i think and its all mine. its gonna be so great there tomorrow night. that reminds me i have to wash my clothes tonight and have em ready. im reading this book called howl's moving castle by uhm .. hl..by diana wynne jones. its a really great book. havent read one like it in a while. its really funny too. lolz yeah its good. uhm. what else to say. errr uhh uhm. oh ive taken a liking to my nails short. they are easier to maintain and i have them pink with a black marker line lolz. only on one hand tho the other is plain pink. what else. oh uhm im puttin more hair into my face. i really like the way it looks. fits me pretty well i think. i hope. anywayz. uhm yah thas all i havta say so bye all.

...~^*shani!